Tolkien, The Hobbit, The Lord of the Rings, Star Trek: TNG/DS9/VOY/ENT, Sherlock, Pacific Rim, MCU, X-Men (movieverse).

Occasionally NSFW.

I tag meticulously, and I usually have a queue running.

 

Tumblr meme thing bleh bleh

I was tagged by spitemeister!

Rules: Just insert your answers to the questions below. Tag at least 10 followers.



Name: Remains a secret, since I need my anonymity.
Nickname: None IRL at the moment. ‘Chaos’ on Tumblr, I guess.
Birthday: Early in the year.
Gender: I used to identify as a woman, but that doesn’t seem entirely right anymore, and now I don’t know if I am something else or if I just dislike being female.

Sexuality: I identify as bisexual, even though pansexual might be more accurate. I feel awkward about all of it, but I am more comfortable with the term bisexual.
Height: 167.7 cm. (I was about to convert this to feet and inches, but you know, fuck it.)

Time zone: GMT+1.

What time and date is it there: 22:08, 16 september.

Average hours of sleep: Eight?
OTPs: My current ones are Dwalin/Thorin, John/Sherlock, Bashir/Garak, Hayes/Reed, and Bucky/Steve.

The last thing I Googled was: “Average hours of sleep”. I wasn’t 100 percent sure if it meant what I thought it meant or if it was a fancy expression for the time you go to bed.
First word that comes to mind: Selleri. (It’s the Swedish word for ‘celery’, and no, I have absolutely no idea where that came from.)
What I last said to a family member: “Ja, ni med, hej hej.” (Typical ending of a phone call.)

One place that makes me happy and why: My apartment (even though I liked my old apartment more). Having a place of my own where I can be alone is necessary for me to function.

How many blankets I sleep under: Three at the moment.
Favorite beverage: Milk.

The last movie I watched in the cinema was: X-Men: Days of Future Past.

Three things I can’t live without: My apartment, internet, and my best friend (who doesn’t know if he wants to see me anymore – welp).
Something I plan on learning: I am currently trying to learn the lyrics to ‘Hijo de la Luna’. I didn’t know the first thing about Spanish when I started, so it’s a fun and educational challenge.

A piece of advice for all my followers: I was thinking about something really important earlier today, but now I have forgotten what it was. Oh well. The next time you’re making tomato sauce, you should really try putting cumin in it.

My blog/s: Besides this one, I run you-promised-me-explosions.
You have to listen to this song: Möl Triffid – I Wanna See Pretty People Doin’ Ugly Things. I still find that song hilarious, and I want to end this on a positive note, so there you go.

This has been going around for a while, so I won’t be tagging anyone, but if you want to do it, please go ahead! (And don’t forget to mention me in it so that I can find and read it!)

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Maybe try to tell him just that — that you don’t want to dump it all on him any more, but that doesn’t mean you’re better.

That is a good idea. Thanks for assisting my poorly working brain. (When I try to come up with things to say on my own, I usually make everything so complicated that I get stressed out and fuck it all up.)

But he can’t know how you feel when you hide it. He’s no mind reader. I know a lot of people who were surprised that I had depression.

The thing is that I have dumped everything bad in my life on him almost every day for years, so it’s a good thing that I have managed not to do that for a while. It just bothers me that he interprets my silence as me being happy and not needing him. As I said, I know it’s not fair to him. Basically I still just want to rub my unhappiness in his face until he is forced to do something about it. But I try not to.

aiwa-sensei:

I was planning this one for a while now. Red pandas and Bilbo are the cutest creatures sooo >w< . 
The only thing that is left unanswered is who is braiding their hair? Maybe some raccoons idk.
Also I finally learned all of the names of the dwarves.

aiwa-sensei:

I was planning this one for a while now. Red pandas and Bilbo are the cutest creatures sooo >w< . 

The only thing that is left unanswered is who is braiding their hair? Maybe some raccoons idk.

Also I finally learned all of the names of the dwarves.

My friend told me last week that I seem “happier” nowadays. I am still so upset! Just because I am not panicking and screaming and crying all the time does not mean I am happier. It just means that I have got enough things to distract myself from the huge black emptiness with, and that I may finally have managed to die a little inside. I know it is not fair to my friend, but it just makes me so angry that he thought I was fine just because I have been suffering in silence for a while instead of bothering him.

graceebooks:

have you ever been talking to your friend and one of you says something to make the other person laugh and its funny and you both have a good time? yeah thats why its called the johnlock conspiracy you sour ass fucking raisins